Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Early Morning Ramblings...

This could be a long one...My brain seems to want to ramble today!!

I awoke this morning at 4 to my little one crying from a bad dream. So after I settled her back down, I went back to bed & tossed & turned until 5. I just couldn't turn my brain off! Why does that always happen in the early hours?? I was thinking about my sister & her troubles; my parents & how generous they are & how I hate to see them get older; a new ATC swap my BFF Rachel is starting; a few contests & challenges I want to work on; how I need to clean the house & my studio; give Maggie a haircut; get dog food & do laundry...round & round it went! I was also thinking about a disturbing dream I had just before I woke up to Maggie crying.

It was one of those dreams where you can't remember the details, but you remember the "feeling" of the dream. Do you know the kind I'm talking about? What I can remember is that I had been hanging out with my friend Rachel one minute & the next we were arguing about something & we got so irritated that we were no longer friends in the end! *GASP!*

I awoke w/a sense of profound sadness & despair from that dream! I wondered what we could have been so upset about that it would break-up our new friendship. And what ever would I do if that dream were reality! I can't tell you how much her friendship has meant to me over the last 4 months! She has taught me so much & made me grow in my creativity as well as pushed my confidence level up a notch. She is such a wonderful, caring, giving person & I am all the better for knowing her. She is the friend that I have searched for in my adulthood - the one that I have so much in common with that we can each pour our hearts out to each other when needed or even tell the other she's being a giant flake! She's a lot like my sister in that respect! (Of course no one can replace my Kimmy, but Rachel is a close second!) GAWD! I hope we NEVER have a falling out over anything! Ya hear me Rach?!!! My sister had one of those with someone & it really did cut to the bone. It seems now that she's very cautious when making new friends.

Speaking of my sister, Kim. She truely is an amazing lady & I worry about her so much lately as she goes through some stuff at home. I hope she knows how much I respect, admire & love her! In fact, I think I will end there & go call her & tell her that!

Hopefully the day brings more happy feelings & lots of productivity!


Rachel Carlson said...

and now you have me in TEARS! that's all i have to say about that right now...i'll have to compose myself before i finish my response....


mylaughingmagpie said...

Always, "right back at ya!"